These feelings I have...I can't tell if what I want is you or if what I want is my own self growth. Your warmth brings me happiness. But your presence brings me the realization that I have never truly been alone. I've always surrounded myself with someone to distract me of the numbness, but my meeting you wasn't on purpose. My loving you wasn't planned, it wasn't what I expected. I love you and I will always love you. But right now, I don't know if it's something I can continue to display.