Yes, its ugly and noone who's not going through it has no clue. Clueless and just think you are crazy! The dark night of the soul is tge worst, yiu have noone and doubt everything about yourself, humanity and actually believe you are going crazy! Mine happened while i was very ill with shingles, a total meltdown, ughly!! ♡Spiritual growth is a damn messy process. Let's get real here!