Yup not that i gave up i have poured my heart and soul ino this. I just realized and paid attention to the signs. Better to try to protect ones self and heart before you get kicked out again and replaced.
"It's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard and we're gonna have to work at this everyday. But I wanna do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, everyday." Noah to Allie - The Notebook