You'll never change your life until you change something you do daily. The secret of your success is found in your daily routine. Maybe adding a daily habit of more love with your child might make a positive change for both of you.
There is only one way to avoid criticism: do nothing, say nothing, and be nothing. -Aristotle (i. you can't avoid criticism so you must just learn to accept it and go on with your life. Accept yourself flaws and all).