Don't ever apologize for being you MF, Those haters you have are not accustomed to a woman who stands up for herself, they are sheep and you are a leader. They feel threatened by you. They are sad because they are irrelevant to your life, T.
Your journey has molded you for your greater god, and it was exactly what it needed to be. Don't think that you've lost time. It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now. And now is right on time.