When you say them in public and people are just like what the heck are you talking about? And you laugh and feel bad not explaining but you don't want to explain because it's an INSIDE joke! Not and outside joke.
You have no idea. I just i can't live without my music. It's my escape to the world and just relax and sometimes realize that i'm happy with what i have, or sad that i can't have um certain things and just waiting for the future to come true.