Because losing someone isn't an occasion or an event. It doesn't just happen once. It happens over and over again. I lose you every time. Every time I'm kept in the dark. Every time I'm outcasted. Every time I have unanswered questions.
in fact i let you control me. but i'm finally moving on. although you did teach me one thing: to never hold on to someone who isn't holding on to you. as for me, i know better. as for you, you lost a person who actually cared.