You are not hard to understand, you are not difficult, to the heart that is made to love you. Quit telling yourself, quit repeating the lie, that you are a bloody mess that is impossible to understand!
There was a time where I didn't even know what to dream for. I teetered on the edge of settling for just-okay, and I'm so (sooo) glad God stepped in. He had a bigger plan waiting for me. Spoiler alert: He usually does.