I think I have resolved just to never get attached to anyone. I always seem to find a way to ruin it or mess it up or go too far. Well I'm done screwing things up with the people I care most about. Done letting the people I thought loved me leave me.
the fear of getting emotionally attached . and it still hurts . I want to feel but it hurts, I fear the most amazing happiness, feeling it and then when I have to let it go, I don't want to pain like that
And smiles turn into laughs, laughs turn into kisses - and before you know it, the days turn into weeks, and weeks turn into months. And you'll find yourself forgetting what it was like before they were in your life.
**PROMPT** Journal about the box of darkness - what did it look like? What was it about that darkness that became a gift? Why did it take years? Was it something internal to me or did it take years for the gift to appear?