I find you in the smallest of things. hearing someone vaguely talk about your favorite sport, or looking at the ocean at its bluest. trying to find you in the largest of crowds just to find you. I'm broken and only you can fix me.
I think he regrets it. He may not want to admit because it will make him a "terrible person", but he knows deep down he made the wrong choice. You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him drink.