No matter what happens each day I always feel sad, left out, lonely, and feel like I'm invisible. Even if someone did something nice to me I would smile and act happy but what I really feel inside of me is depression ☹.
Yes depression hits you like a rock it doesn't matter what time it is, what your doing, or who your with. it will hit you like a ton of bricks out of no where. one Minuit you fine then the next you go from fine to Fuck life.
I am not me anymore. That is the simple and plain truth. I am no longer that Dutch student who lived a boring life in the south of Holland. I am an Element of Nature, result of a botched experiment. I am a reanimated corpse.