I feel like this! Just please make an insert about how I want to let God control things. I feel like if I control the fact that God is in control everything will be all right. I want to have a relationship that is unfathomably deep.
Be honest with yourself about what sparks you and take action on it. Don't worry about finding your one true "passion." That's too abstract of a concept to figure out logically. Instead, start by acting on the small things that excite you each day.
I was raised by this saying. Never let anyone who can't even support their own family and lies about heir own life events to trthemselves feel better about their own pathetic life tell you anything about yourself or your family.