I feel like I'm just fighting to stay afloat and not drown. And the thing is you'll never know who I am truly and really see me Until we are together. All this stress and loneliness has eaten away at me and there's no way our relationship would ever be like this in person. You can't stop and see that I've been waiting for you for over a year and half? All left to blind faith in you? Nobody would make it this far thru all of this. I don't know how else to explain it.